Yesterday was the first day of rehearsal for 9 Circles by Bill Cain at Marin Theatre Company. Being back there is really indescribable for me. Driving up there was this huge mashup of feelings, from nostalgia for the days when I was paid hourly and contracted for longer than 8 weeks, to excitement at seeing people I’ve missed, to that crazy rush that floods you in the fall (you know what I mean). We don’t get leaves turning colors in San Bruno, and I miss that.
Then add in the fact that I’m a little jealz of the people working on the mainstage show that opened last night (In the Red and Brown Water, part of the Brother/Sister Trilogy), and I kinda wish I could be back in the main theatre. I did spend 6 months skulking around back there; I guess I was feeling a little territorial. It’s cool, but it tinged my HAPPYNESS! with a little bittersweet edge. Same thing when I thought of my friends there…we’re never going to be friends outside of work. You know how you can just tell? But I really love hanging out with them, like, between shows. It’s so much fun, and I think I miss having guy friends around. Where did all my guy friends go?
PS. Mill Valley is freaking gorgeous. I think it must just look like Lake County and that’s why I’m so drooly over it all the time. With leaves changing and clouds making dapples everywhere and everything smelling like woodsmoke and apples (or did I just make that up?)… Even now I’m like flailing around in my chair trying to get out my feelings. This is why I’m not a poet. Ah beauty!
On my way home I stopped at Target and then store-hopped around the shopping center. Running errands like this, especially when the sun has already set, makes me think of Christmas shopping. It’s like around the corner! Halloween stuff is everywhere! Holiday time! Omg!
Did I ever mention that in March/April, spring is my favorite month, but the rest of the year, it’s FALL?
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